So I thought I'd do an update for you all based on music for me! I don't know how many of you actually read my blog, but if you didn't know, I'm a big music person! I'm going to be a senior in high school, and quite frankly, it's exciting. . . I get to take classes that I really enjoy and just be the upperclassmen! And with the classes I'm taking, involves band and I also do marching band in the fall!
For all of you who don't know, I play the clarinet! It's a marvelous instrument and when played right, it sounds beautiful! Now, the issue is, my bite was so wonky before surgery, I learned how to play the clarinet wrong. . . basically, I've been doing it wrong since I was in 8th and now, I'm re-teaching myself to play again and it's so confusing. And not only is it confusing, but IT HURTS! It's frustrating to know that after playing for four years now, I have to start again and it hurts. My upper teeth super sensitive and sore after playing for even an hour or so and it's really depressing to know I can't really do what I used to be able to do. All I know is it takes time. . . but I'm reading around and some people say it takes up to two years to finally play like you used to. . . which is disheartening.
Marching band is pretty. . . extensive, considering camp is from 8:30-4:30 from Monday to Friday for the two weeks before school and then after that, we have rehearsal until like 5:30. So playing is definitely scaring me. I really don't want to backtrack on my results so far and I really, really don't want to hurt myself and push myself to far either. At the same time, I want to be able to play again. It's kind of confusing.
If any of you reading out there, play any woodwind instrument (excluding the flute), I'm wondering, how your experience playing again was.
On another note, since my speech is a lot better, my singing has gotten a lot better, I think. I can breathe through my nose which is a new thing for me, and now I don't so nasally when I sing or when I talk so that's really great! (:
Jaw surgery is definitely not an easy journey but at the end of the day, I'm grateful that I did it and I'm even happier to say that it's made me stronger.
Another setback--I've realized that I have to take my senior pictures with my braces. I was hoping I was going to get my braces off before then, but I guess I just have to deal. It's really kind of. . . 'depressing' to say that I don't get to take my braces off before senior pictures. Maybe I can edit them out, but still. . . it's not the same. I guess in the long run, it's more important to get it all down now and think about the real results. It's just a high school picture, right?
Update Photo: (15 weeks, +1 day)
Looking back. . . wow, I look a lot better compared to when I first got my splint out:
Big difference, yeah? Sheesh! As long as things are coming along, I'm pretty happy!