So I thought I'd update everyone on what exactly my plans are for this summer as far as change for myself.
I've decided to add losing weight to the "to-do" list. After camp, I think I'm comfortable in my own body but I'd rather much be healthier than anything else. A lot of issues in today's social media and just in society in general are all about their physical appearances which is why I was having such a hard time going through surgery. A lot of people look at eating disorders (anorexia, bulimia, etc.) as such horrible diseases and I totally agree because they are so unhealthy and a lot of people in response to that take glory and pride in the weight they have currently.
Now, I think that's actually great! But for me, I'm not losing weight just to lose weight or to make myself feel better about myself. I figured, I need to feel HEALTHIER and be healthy instead of just 'being okay' with the weight I'm at right now. . . so there we have it!
This jaw surgery has really opened my eyes to a lot of things about myself and other people and I've truly learned what it means to just do things for yourself and not other people. So, hopefully, this goes well and I can definitely lose the weight that I want to and as time goes on, I hope I can see a difference and I'll post pictures on that too! I'm super excited to start this process and a little nervous!
As for a REAL update on everything:
Pain: 1/10 (I don't think it really hurts unless I'm eating something that's too hard.)
Emotionally: I'm much happier. It's an amazing feeling!
Swelling: I honestly have no idea. I think there's still some left.
Numbness: Things still feel tight in my upper lip and around the bottom of my nose and in my gums. My upper gums are completely numb as well as the roof of my mouth.
Diet: Pretty much back to normal. I haven't actually gotten to a real steak yet, but I have been able to eat a normal burger by pulling it apart and then putting it in my mouth.
My speech: I think it sounds a lot better than before I got the surgery. I think because of that splint, I'm still learning how to pronounce things still.
My breathing: HALLELUJAH, GLORY TO GOD! I can finally breathe better. Every once in a while, due to allergies, it can be difficult but right now, as I'm typing this, I can bring normally out of both my nostrils. Before this surgery, I breathed through my mouth for everything and now? I can breathe through my nose! It's amazing!